Mumbling, mumbling and mumbling

im writing without thinking of any major topic. i cant fall to sleep so this is what im doing. wasting my time here writing anything that i think i should write. this is the way better to do if i cant sleep. BLOG! thanks to blogger cos this is the only way i can pour out my feelings and anything else without boundaries, i guess. HAHA. so im an SPM candidates, again for this 2010. last time i sit for the exam was on 2007. when im thinking back about my past, and compare it today. there was so many mistakes that ive done. i forget about life that i should be. arrogant in my own way until im dropping down and i almost cant stand up. imagine life totally destroyed like an ashes. it takes time for me to realized. well im so lucky cos im finally wake up from my very most terrible dream. older always remind us that LOVE shouldn't take serious when you're in school. it might destroy your future. but then im so vain. never listen to them and now, take this. this is all i got. bad result and totally cant choose my own way that i want to be. im seeing all my friends, continuing to their further studies while im still sitting at home without thinking of the future. i feel so bad. and i feel so guilty with my mum. i always argue with her and never listen to her. now im regret it i swear! i dont want to go back to that miserable life. i want to built a new life. a new me. never playing anymore, now i want to take this seriously. SPM and get a better result. so i can go anywhere i wanted to be without any boundaries! :)